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Well my first blog.

Today sucks really bad. I can't stop thinking about how much better everyone else's lives would be if I wasn't around. Not like I'm gonna kill myself, just I want to leave this small town. I want to be able to cut ties with everyone and not miss anyone. I wish I wouldn't of gotten as close as I did to people. if I wouldn of just kept things simple once I moved from Lakewood I would be able to leave much easier but I had to get close to Eric, Mike, & Josh. I'd miss Molly & Kaitlin but they're family so it's different. But I dunno. This just sucks really really bad. I wish that I knew how Eric felt about me. I mean I really like him but it's so confusing at times cause I feel like I'm making life more complicated for him. If I wouldn't of came around things would be so much easier for him...
I honestly think that if I just got up and left one day only my family would miss me. People may notice but they would forget about me in a couple weeks, I don't matter to anyone that much. I just make people worry and I just annoy people with how down I am. I wish that I didn't think like this.